Thursday, August 7, 2008

One &*$%*@ of a Month!

Many of you are chomping at the bit to see more of my pregnant belly. I can't say I'm too excited to show it off. The thing is HUGE! Okay - not so much HUGE as it is ENORMOUS! I can't say I'm happy about the fact. Most girls really start poking out at around 6 months. Well, I look like I'm carrying triplets especially since I'm just over 4 months along and my belly is the size of Rhode Island...literally.

Over the past month I've had comments like:
  • "I can't believe your ankles are so swollen already!"
  • "You'd better take that wedding ring off before you have to cut it off!" - Too Late! Robbie and I had to cut it off last night.
  • "Let me guess, you're about 7 months along." When I told him I was 3 and 1/2 months he replied..."Whoa! That baby's going to be huge!"
  • "You look just like someone I know and when you walked into the store I thought 'Maybe she just gained some weight or something.'"
  • "I don't know how to lose weight...I always had a problem with it...when I was young I looked as big as you."
I can't say that I took any of these comments well. Actually, I'm such a ball of emotions that after pretty much all of them I came home and cried. Some days I don't know how Robbie can handle being around me.

Here's the reality: I LOVE my baby and am truly excited to be a mother, HOWEVER, I can't say that I LOVE being pregnant. In fact - being pregnant really SUCKS! When most women either don't have morning sickness or they get over it by the end of their 1st trimester, I happen to be well into my 17th week and still HORK (aka BARF) AT LEAST every 2 days or so. I figure I'm going to be one of those women who will be barfing until the day they deliver. Everything on my body is puffy...I'm just waiting for the gums in my mouth to begin retaining water. Energy went down the toilet at about week 4 for me and it seems like I'm always going to feel like I'm going through menopause - hot flashes are a daily occurrence.

Top all of that off with a horrible kidney infection/kidney stones at the beginning of July, a visit to the emergency room and a 4 day hospital stay...and you get someone who really has no desire to post pictures of herself and even update her blog in over a month.

I hate to be such a downer and I'm so sorry you, my blogging friends, had to read a complaining post, but I thought I'd better explain myself a little. Please know that many photos and updates are coming. I plan to document my hospital stay, kidney problems and all that has happened over the last month as soon as I feel the energy to do so. Just remember though, this blog is meant to be a WRITING blog - not a HERESWHATSHAPPENINGINMYLIFE blog - so expect essays...not a ton of photos. Eventually - when the baby is born - we'll have a Family Blog and you'll be able to see photos to your hearts content. Until then, you have to withstand my sucky writing!


k8theriver said...

i hate being prego. it is so hard for me to believe people that say they like it.
you won't be getting skinnier for a long time but you will get energy back soon. and hopefully, you'll stop barfing. but then come other problems: heart burn, insomnia, aches from all the weight...and all this leads up to the delivery.
but i'm happy for you. good luck.

TheDooleys4 said...

Oh man Em! I feel your pain! I hated being Pregnant more than I can even say! I had many similar struggles healtwise all the way through and also the whole showing quickly thing. I think us short girls suffer with the nowhere to go but out syndrome. I'm so sorry Em! Hang in there. I will be praying for you and thinking of you. Hopefully things will get better for you...I'll be crossing my fingers that that happens. As for the Jackass comments I think you need to look them straight in the eye and tell them very frankly where to go. Seriously, the nerve. Love you lots. Call me if you need to vent. Been there, done that.

TheDooleys4 said...

By the way...I love my kids and it's worth it.

Rebecca said...

I love your "sucky" writing! Seriously, its the only way I know what is going on in your prego life! Wowzers! Sorry for the *@#%^& July! Here's to a better August!
PS Coming to San Diego in Nov...maybe we can meet up?

Bee-Lissa said...

Okay, a) your belly isn't the size of Rhode Island, and b) I'm pretty sure you aren't alone in the pregnancy sucks category. That said, complain away. I'm of the opinion that blogs can be very cathartic. Let it all out, we're here for you.